Days 5 & 6: things are looking up (kinda)

Alright so I have to say that this has been the most painful experience I have ever been through by far but I definitely see big changes. I just hate life right now. Day 5 was probably the worst for me. I threw up on this day. Like real throw up. Through my bands. It hurt like hell. I just want to warn anyone who has stomach issues like I do, you will definitely experience some hellish times. It passes but make sure you get Phenergan wrist gel from your doctor. Not zofran, Phenergan. I was at my lowest point emotionally too. This is a serious procedure, y'all. It hits you hard. Something else I would like to share. I have fucking had it with my goddamn syringe. It's gross and not natural. It also makes my water taste like hell. So I decided to figure my shit out. What I'm doing now is I'm pouring liquid into my mouth with the guidance of my top lip (which i can feel now). I don't recommend doing this until after the first 3 or 4 days. It's really not what you're supposed to do, but fuck it. I started only doing it with water. Today on day 6 I decided to try it with those delicious danimals smoothies. Don't think this isn't going to be messy, it is. Very messy. However, you get really good at it. So far I've done it with water, danimals, and now dr pepper (I'll get into that in just a minute, it was an experience). Anyway, what you need to do is hold a rag under your bottom lip and you'll avoid getting mess on you and it's a win/win situation. I don't do this with everything. I still take my meds and juices through the syringe, but when I drink for pleasure or water it's through my teeth. It's worth it. Alright, now onto pop. Okay, so I tried pop for the first time today. It burned like hell and it doesn't taste the same quite yet. But it was nice to get some back into my system. I've missed the doctor. About now you're getting cabin feverish. I recommend getting out for a bit. It's Christmas time so my boyfriend takes me to see the lights. I can't stay cooped up in my room. It's just depressing. I also can't take my zoloft right now since I can't swallow pills so it's basically like fuck me, right? Haha. Well I think I'm ready for my one week mark. I will definitely enjoy meeting a big milestone. This is a horrible experience. I just can't wait to see my beautiful results. I feel like shit so I'll update the blog when something else significant happens.